Thanks for the reassurance, God — and the $20!

“I will get an answer in the mail today, one way or another.”  That was my intu­itive impres­sion as I headed out to my mail­box.   And I was right!  Well, in a way.  Let me tell you the story…

I left my job sev­eral months back and expected to receive money from another source as a means of sup­port.  Instead I got a punch-in-the-stomach let­ter stat­ing that I had assumed too much and would not be receiv­ing any­thing.  Sev­eral rounds of appeals later, I am await­ing the final word.  I’ve been on inner pins and nee­dles as I vas­cil­late between “I’d bet­ter get another job right now” vs. “Remain patient, trust that all will work out as hoped, and enjoy the time at home with the kid­dos.”   In the past I would have worked myself into an ulcer, but I’m happy to say that I can now catch this crazy-making men­tal ping-pong in it’s infancy.  I now take a deep breath and remem­ber that “God is my source, I shall not want”.  Over and over, “God is my source, I shall not want.  God is my source, I shall not want…”  Along with this, I asked God to help me stay strong in my faith by hav­ing $20 bills pop up as com­fort­ing reminders that He/She is watch­ing out for me.  I toyed with the idea of ask­ing for thou­sands of dol­lars to show up, but I had too much “Yeah, right” energy attached to that thought for it to be a vibra­tional match.  Twenty bucks now and then though?  I could line up with that energy.

As always, God moves quickly when I’m not in my own way.  The next day, my mom came over and a num­ber of items fell out of her purse — glasses, gum, keys and a twenty dol­lar bill.  As I handed it all to her, she passed the twenty back to me and said, “Why don’t you put this one in your purse instead?”  I love it!  Thanks God!  Thanks Mom!  It was such a com­fort­ing reminder that I can co-create any­thing — and quickly — as long as I’m open to receiv­ing what­ever it is.

A few more of those delight­ful, reas­sur­ing $20 bills popped up in unex­pected places…and then I hit a dry spot.  “Coin­ci­den­tally” they stopped show­ing up when I became more focused on my finan­cial anx­i­ety than “God is my source, I shall not want”.

Alerted by the lack of $20 reas­sur­ances, I refo­cused my thoughts on abun­dance and finan­cial flow.  As I walked to my mail­box I truly felt at peace about receiv­ing either a “yes” or “no” answer about my expected moolah, but I was eager for the cer­tainty of an answer.  

I was dis­ap­pointed at first when there were no offi­cial look­ing envelopes, but my smile started when I saw the hand­writ­ten enve­lope addressed to me with a return address from a state where I know nobody and with no name listed.  I opened the enve­lope to find a clip art image of three doves cir­cling the sun and a twenty dol­lar bill.  I was lit­er­ally laugh­ing out loud as I walked back into the house.  No name, no note.  Just $20 from God, with an image so per­fect that I’m still smil­ing about it sev­eral days later. 

And so, in that funny, non-linear way that Spirit so often takes, I got my answer.  Not a physical-level answer about where my next dol­lars would be com­ing from, but the answer that I needed.  The reminder really.  God is root­ing for me, and giv­ing me what­ever I ask for and then am will­ing to receive.  In the pic­ture “He” sent, I saw Spirit’s radi­ant white light, sur­round­ing and encom­pass­ing mes­sen­gers of peace. God is always shin­ing His light upon me, and when I focus in His direc­tion, peace always sur­rounds me. 

God is my source, I shall not want.

(Okay, for those of you who want more details about how in the world I got sur­prise cash in the mail, I’m guess­ing that it actu­ally came as an orga­nized gift.  I’m part of sev­eral gift­ing cir­cles and, as such, it’s not unusual for me to get lovely envelopes of cash gifts.  None of the gift­ing cir­cles have gift lev­els of exactly $20 though, and the envelopes usu­ally have notes and names attached!  I’m chalk­ing this one up to God “nudg­ing” the per­son who addressed the enve­lope to for­get to add their name or a note, and to include only $20 instead of the usual, higher gift amount.  Gotta love it!)

Tags: financial abundance, gifting circles, law of attraction, manifesting

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